So my phone has been stolen from the corner store by my house by this young couple. What makes me mad is they clearly saw that the lock screen had pictures of teenagers and they wouldn’t be nice enough to give it to the cashier but instead pretend to be theirs. I think the worst part is since my phone has been stolen I have been having panic attacks every 2 hours. I even woke up last night having a panic attack. I haven’t had panic attacks this bad since my mom had brain surgery when I was 11. I would do anything to get my phone back. It’s people like this that make me disappointed in humanity.
He loves others but will never love me!
Since Im currently on lockdown in my room Im going to be doing a following spree since the last one went so well. So click that follow button and I will follow you back and I do not follow back unless you unfollow.
Ive decided since im going to be a senior why mess around with younger guys? They are immature and I am mature so from now on its nothing but college guys.
When I reach 1000 followers I will reveal my name
When I reach 2500 followers I will reveal a picture of me
Lets see how long it takes to reach these goals
I promise to follow everyone back and have patience I WILL follow everyone back.
Tomorrow marks the last day of school, and I couldn’t be happier. NO not for summer fun and swimming. Honestly I cannot stand being in a bikini my stomach is to big and my thighs rub together and no matter how hard I try to look pretty I can never get a guys number. Its virtually impossible. Some people say its my self-esteem but I do a dang good job covering up my insecurities. Who knows what this summer break will bring. I pray it doesn’t bring back anorexic thoughts like last year or suicidal thoughts like every summer before. Maybe Ill meet new people and they will actually like me back or a miracle happens and the boy Im so in love with will come to his senses and see that im the girl who has been there for him through everything and not one of the fake girls who uses him or treats him wrong. Hopefully he will learn that I would treat him the way he needs to be treated. And I would love him so much better than any of the girls he goes after.
I am going on a following spree for a while so follow and I will follow back!
I think the best part of summer is not having to see the guy that I am in love with everyday in the hallways and knowing that he only sees me as a friend.
My mom wonders why im so much in a hurry to get the hell out of this house. I count down the days until im gone in college in my own. Will I come home for Christmas, thanksgiving, summer break. I don’t know at this point. My mom has a lot of making up to do. She wonders why we have fallen apart. Maybe it was the day she loaded the shot gun and pointed it at me while I was crying yelling at her to leave me alone. That was the day she found out about me starving myself. She wondered why I starved myself and purge. Maybe its because I don’t want to end up like her, fat and unhappy. But hey Im already like that now. When Im gone in college I wont need her or my sister, nobody. Im gonna get me a job and never ask her for money again. Im going to get into college with a scholarship and never need to ask her to help with loans. I will pay my bills and never need her assistance. I will be independent from her. and She will wonder why I won’t need her anymore
It may be hard but it’s worth it to chose who your real friends are!